Hmm, so the blog died for the second time.
And I don’t really want to explain my abandonment of the blogging world, ... ill leave it at that!

And as I write this, I have to admit that the blog that has inspired this piece... whatever it turns out to be .. was reading the blog entries form bibi aesha's blog!

I realize that the journey's, experiences and introspections she so eloquently pieces together into sentences and paragraphs that make so much sense ... are similar to the internal dialogues created in my mind!

As my thoughts wander along the memories and experiences that have led me to think that way I do, to make the decision the way I do, or help shape who I am today, I feel a sense of pride! My longing and endless frustrating yearning for something that I had no idea what exactly that was...has led me to say.... I finally have a sense of who I truly am.

I don’t want to sound like an advert for the ‘self-help’ section of exclusive books! (Of which I shyly admit that I somehow end up at) or OPRAH. But this has been the most remarkable part of 2006 for me! A fantastic year which will remain one of the best of my life!

As unique, strange, inconstant, vibrant, different, and the list of adjectives go on... as every other human being on this earth! … I am me! and I find the discovery of the self fascinating!

My story is different! No one can boast the experiences and challenges I’ve faced! My story is mine! And today I declare that warts and all, I am proud of who I am.

I have been told by a close friend of mines… actually 3… that I have an amazing ability to write so much, yet say so little! And admittedly it freaks me out that people might discover my blog and actually waste their time reading this! But for today… the effort and time I’ve taken to pen the above will mean that its going to be published! perhaps deleted... at some stage.

I have returned home this year after an exciting 2006 away from home. As expected, I have changed a whole lot. And the world has carried on without me. Adjustment has not been an easy one and the challenges of everyday have been worth every bit! I love being home.! Not that being at home is a bed of roses either!

So in no particular order of importance, …ill mention a few interesting, peculiar, expected, alarming and poignant changes I have encountered! And maybe one or two lessons I’ve learned! And maybe one or 2 arbitrary comments!
As much as I can remember for today! And perhaps if there is another blog entry… I might mention few more!


1) My hair is longer! And have managed to loose 8 kilos in a matter of a few days in January!
2) Most of my friends are married… or planning to getting married.. or are in a serious long term relationship ready to commit!
3) My sisters have matured into beautiful women I learn from everyday
4) I love and appreciate my parents more than I ever have! And more than they know.
5) No relationship is guaranteed!
6) I’m still as stubborn, indecisive and disorganized as ever!
7) I have been described as complicated.
8) Every relationship (with friends, acquaintances, family, colleagues, enemies and the like) I had in 2005, has changed! This is mostly because of a conscious decision to redefine the nature of the relationship. This is based on a variety factors. And its been interesting redefining and rediscovering bits of new information about everyone!
9) I miss my sister and late cousin more than ever!
10)I am an independent young Muslim women! (peculiar, but true)
11) I don’t want my life to be too easy. I have learned to accept and appreciate the challenges that Almighty Allah has placed on me.. as I learn the greatest during these times. (this I usually say on hindsight)
12) I have been described a ‘missable sort of person’ by a friend from last year!:) that made me smile!
13) I am able to adapt to new situations, new cultures, new people and new experiences with ease.
14) I hate traffic… but love the time I spend alone with myself in the car
15) SAFM is cool!
16) I have learned lessons of love
17) I don’t want to know you if you define me based on what I look like, or what I do!
19) I have so much to learn about life… so bring it on!

And that’s enough for now! Or my rambling will continue!

Peace out!
Shen